To: I think you know who you are (:

Number one, I need my personal space desu. It's a fact that friends shouldn't have a wall in between them. But different people have different mindsets and perspectives. You have yours and I have mine. We both think differently. In my case, I.need.my.personal.space, like a thin wall. I feel very uncomfortable when someone other than my family is too close to me. It feels as if it was smothering me. I know that we've been close friends for more than three years. Still, i need my own space. I believe you have noticed that i've not been talking to you much, am i right? I just need time to rebuild that wall. And I can't always talk to you when there are so many people in the group. If I just talk to you, it'll be unfair for people like Chin Fung and Jia Jing who truly want to communicate with us.

Number two, I didn't say that you're Sarrah. I said that you're behaving like her. It's totally two very different things. She's just...EW, and you're not EW. Like I mentioned, I need my own personal space. Which also means that I don't really like too much skinship. Just a hug or a slight pat on the shoulder would do. But anything more, Ember does not approve. To be direct and honest, it gives me a feeling of being very...lesbian-ish. That overwhelming Sarrah feeling. It's seriously very unpleasant. You may not mind it, but, bringing me back to my point, i need my space. I mind. Kimochi warui desu...

Number three, please don't get so paranoid. It bothers me. A lot. It's the truth that my tutor came before i had time to reply to your message. But there's no reason to get so paranoid just because i didn't reply for a few hours. Also, by saying that you dreamt of losing me, it's very uncomfortable and too extreme for me. To be honest, i'm upset that you doubt our friendship. It's just that I feel that you're getting a little to "sticky" and i need to gain back my personal space again.

Lastly, I just want to say that I need more time to rebuild my wall, so that I won't have that intrusion-of-privacy feeling that makes me very uncomfortable. And I think that we just need a little time off of each other. I still want to be able to talk to you normally soon.

Hope that this message gets to you. Just write your thoughts in the tagboard.

-Ember

Harumi Onigiri blogged at 1:54 AM

Firstly, I need my personal space desu. I know that we've been friends for over three years and that we're close to each other. But then I.need.personal.space. I don't want to say this, but I feel very restricted. Friends shouldn't have a wall in between them, that i understand. But different people have different mindsets. You have yours, I have mine. We both think differently. In my case, i need my own space, like a thin wall. I really don't feel comfortable if i'm too close with someone. I think you've also noticed that I don't really talk much to you nowadays, am i right? It's not your fault. I just need time to "rebuild" the wall to be able to talk to you normally or i'll get irritated.

Secondly, I didn't say that you're Sarrah. I said that you're behaving like her. That doesn't equate to being her. She's just...EW. And you're not EW. Like I said, I need my own personal space, which also means that I don't like too much skinship. A hug and just a slight pat on the shoulder is fine with me. But being a little too sticky or too close for comfort, Ember does not approve. To me, it's like invading my space, making me uncomfortable again.

Thirdly, please don't get paranoid just because you think that you "lost me". To be honest and direct, it wasn't very pleasant to read. It made me feel very...how should i put it... like your lover. ...And lesbian-ish. With that overwhelming Sarrah feeling again. Kimochi warui desu. It's the truth that my tutor suddenly came and i didn't have time to reply you. But there was no need to get so paranoid over it.Truthfully, it disturbed me. A lot.

Lastly, I just need some time to rebuild my wall again. I really need my personal space. We'll be able to talk normally again soon i guess. Just...don't be so "sticky" because I feel very uncomfortable with that.

Hope this...compo/message gets to you.

-Ember

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