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*My Name: Ember, えむべる, エムベル, Ember-san, Ojou-sama, Pinky, or whatver you wanna call me
*Birthdate: 3rd November. I'm a scorpio!!
*School:Bah... not gonna say >8D


Wishlist~

Choir to get silver in SYF 2009
Choir to get silver in SYF 2011 OMGGG WE DID ITTTTT!!!! TAT
Taylor Swift 'Fearless' album
Do well for my piano recital
Get a distinction in my theory exam
Get at least a merit in my grade 5 piano practical
Go Japan!!!!
Finish the sequel
Get started on the !@#$%^& roulette fluff... I H U Eden...
NII_CHAN!!!!! COME BACK!!
Finish the sasusaku drabble
But Eden's christmas present
Buy Wen Tyng's christmas present
"SECKS" fanfic XD
A Violin~!
Belphegor's Christmas -tooooooooooooooooooooooooot- fanfic XD
Sasuke plushie!!! I shall cuddle it every night~
Money $$$ I shall wait for Chinese New Year...
Get through the semi-finals in piano competition x.x
SHINee badges
SHINee bracelets
SHINee posters
SHINee files
CHOIR TO NEVER GET BRONZE EVER AGAIN!!!!!


Cosplay items~

-Blue contacts
-Rima Touya wig
-VK night class female costume
-Thigh-length black socks
-Dark brown boots with buckle
-Black ribbons
-Pocky (Rima's prop XD)
-Darker mascara
-Darker eyeliner
-Orange/Brown eyeshadow
-Megurine Luka wig
-Mini black tube/halter/sleeveless dress
-Thick silver belt with ribbon
-Magnet version headset
-Black high heels
-Fake lashes
-Turquoise nail polish


Bai bai~

Eden
Wen Tyng
Joelle
Sylvia
Tian Wen
Wang Xue
Yee Chin
Xin Ying
Diana
Qian Ai

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Thursday, May 12, 2011

I don't want to say this directly because, one, it'll take too much time, two, i'm too lazy and three, because i think that this would get through to you better. ...Although i don't really know if you still read my blog, but still... I just dont want to touch this topic in front of people, and talking on the phone or texting would probably end up in a quarrel.

Firstly, I need my personal space desu. I know that we've been friends for over three years and that we're close to each other. But then I.need.personal.space. I don't want to say this, but I feel very restricted. Friends shouldn't have a wall in between them, that i understand. But different people have different mindsets. You have yours, I have mine. We both think differently. In my case, i need my own space, like a thin wall. I really don't feel comfortable if i'm too close with someone. I think you've also noticed that I don't really talk much to you nowadays, am i right? It's not your fault. I just need time to "rebuild" the wall to be able to talk to you normally or i'll get irritated.

Secondly, I didn't say that you're Sarrah. I said that you're behaving like her. That doesn't equate to being her. She's just...EW. And you're not EW. Like I said, I need my own personal space, which also means that I don't like too much skinship. A hug and just a slight pat on the shoulder is fine with me. But being a little too sticky or too close for comfort, Ember does not approve. To me, it's like invading my space, making me uncomfortable again.

Thirdly, please don't get paranoid just because you think that you "lost me". To be honest and direct, it wasn't very pleasant to read. It made me feel very...how should i put it... like your lover. ...And lesbian-ish. With that overwhelming Sarrah feeling again. Kimochi warui desu. It's the truth that my tutor suddenly came and i didn't have time to reply you. But there was no need to get so paranoid over it.Truthfully, it disturbed me. A lot.

Lastly, I just need some time to rebuild my wall again. I really need my personal space. We'll be able to talk normally again soon i guess. Just...don't be so "sticky" because I feel very uncomfortable with that.

Hope this...compo/message gets to you.

-Ember


Harumi Onigiri blogged at 10:16 PM